hallo:< I just recently got my sketchbook from my ex (bast$#@ wouldn't give it back >( ), so expect some cool crap in the future. but for now I'm too busy to even doodle anymore! I'm swamped with all the end of the year crap they give us...you'd think they'ed lighten up a bit, not make things worse....

sorry that I'm ranting, but I jus really need to get some things out....I would do this with my friends, but they don't really seem to care>>

it's ma final year at High School, and I have to admit....I'm scared. what am I going to do with the rest of my life?! I mean I love to draw and all, but I can't make a carrier out of it. I'm just not that good at it...not to mention I have to apply for colledge, get my license, get a better job, and move out. urg, wer'ed the time go?

if this wasn't enough stress, I just can't seem to get away from the person I love. you see, there's this person that I rrrreeeeeaaallllyyyy like, more than anyone I have in a long time. but they are not only dating someone else, they also would NEVER see me that way. I've tried to get rid of these feelings, but they always weasle their way back in. to make matters worse, they love it when I touch them (like massages and caresses and stuff) and wont leave me alone until I do (as if I could refuse--. they have no clue that I just want to hold them down and have my way with them. it's the most bittersweet torture I've ever faced >< god I need help.....

but anyway, I'll get right on those cool drawings whe I get the time. later;3